We manifest what we embody

I have come to learn through personal experience that I am a powerful creator. We all know this about ourselves, even though some of us forget it when we are in the throws of despair and when we do not see any hope or evidence in sight of ever achieving what we hold in our desires. I want to remind you, you who have forgotten and need to read this right now, that what we put our minds to and focus our energies on, we will draw to that to us. Both that which we do not want and that which we do. So it is important for us to become aware of what we are actively holding in our vibration.

Most of the time, in fact almost all of the time, what comes to us do not in the least bit look like what I thought it would, but I have realized that it always is aligned with what I was putting out there or what I wanted to feel. With every manifestation, the wanted and the unwanted, I am being reminded that we attract what and who shows up in our lives through our energy, the vibrational output which calls in what we are asking for. What we place our energies on through our thoughts, feelings and actions either consciously or in our unconscious mind send out a signal to attract that which is operating on the same frequency. We will then come into alignment with it because both sides are looking for the same thing, again either consciously or unconsciously. If you agree with this understanding, then what vibration or energy to you want to send out and align with that is in service to who you are and what you want? Do you agree that if you think about something that you don't want, and most of us do because we feel that it is the best way to caution against it, that you usually have witnessed evidence of it manifesting in your life? Have you also noticed the opposite to be true where when you think about something that you do want or about a particular person then it just somehow shows up in a way you did not expect or the person just calls you or reach out unexpectedly? Then again, how much of our thought pattens are we conscious of? How much attention to our inner workings are we a witness to that have led to what we do not want or to what we do want? Either way, we are asking for both because we have placed our attention on it. It cannot be more obvious and I cannot stress enough, that which we focus our energy and attention to is what we will get. Nothing is by chance. Everything happens for a reason and I also believe that everything works out just the way that they should in the end. If you focussed on what you did not want, then when that shows up, you have an opportunity to ask for something different and you will keep receiving those opportunities until you make a decision to start focussing your energies differently. So you get there in the end, the speed at which you manifest is up to you. All roads lead to the same place, we are meant to go on whichever individual path we take for our own personal lessons and decisions to reach the highest parts of ourselves when we are meant to. If we choose not to, we will also just wander aimlessly along this journey called life and some of us might never taste the sweet fruit of our labor of choosing love. This is what I love about the Manna Moon practice that I have developed - a cyclical journey to become consciously aware of your inner workings and what energetic qualities are at play through the releasing work on the Full Moon and Waning Moon Phases, then on the New Moon and Waxing Moon Phases the work we do to intentionally manifesting our wants.  

I recently went through a breakup which was unexpected, although I was not surprised by the reasons behind it which I fully understand, embrace and support. After it happened I also owned the role that I played unconsciously and consciously in the breakup manifesting. At the time I had set a conscious intention for a balanced relationship and that I wanted to be in emotional alignment with my partner since my ex and I were processing and expressing ourselves differently on an emotional level because of what he was capable of at the time. I did not share this with my ex before the breakup and therefore, I strongly believe that what I was holding in my vibration with such clear intent, manifested in the breakup. His reasons for needing to leave were that he could not be the boyfriend that I needed him to be at the time and that he needs to take the time out to do the emotional work on himself that he has been putting off. He also did not want to keep disappointing me while he is going through his process as he could not meet my expectations. In the end, it was all out of love - love for self and for the other. That is the vibration that I hold around the ending of our relationship which will aid in my forward moving process and his I sincerely hope.  

It's been a month since the breakup and during this time I have gone through the rational and irrational moments of processing the end of our relationship. In my head and in my heart's core I believe that the departure was serving both of us what we needed in order to reach our highest selves and deepest desires. However, at some point of my letting go process recently my ego just did not want to let go of the familiarity and comfort that I had with him - a consistent partner, lover and companion who loved and adored me. After all, we had more fun that not, however as a sensitive soul, the not so good times outweighed the good times for him more than it did for me. Although I know that everything happens to ultimately serve us, as much as I kept pivoting my thoughts towards what I really wanted, I kept staying staying stuck in what once was and how lonely I became without him there to hold me at night or to say good morning to when I arise. I do know that the breakup was the Divine's way of pointing out to me that although we loved each other and that we were happy most of the time, I did not have to settle in areas which were most important to me just because I was unconsciously afraid that I would not find the type of love that I held for him again especially as it took so long to find someone like him. I had been single for 10 years prior to meeting my ex. I also was offered the gift of the “mirror” where for the first time I realized that he was a reflection to what I was vibrating inside of me which in essence was also what was inside of him, but with a different face. This relationship was definitely not in vain and has come for a divine reason, to lead me closer and closer to who I truly am, what I deeply desire and what I still need to work on to get me into closer alignment with my true essence and what I want.

This New Moon practice I then decided to become much more focused on shifting forward in the direction of what it is that I want whenever I think about the past and become overwhelmed with sadness over my loss. Enough time has passed now since the breakup to do so and my desire is to be much more intentional about the vibration that I actively hold inside of me so that the next partner who looks back at me in the mirror is reflecting who I truly am. There are definitely a number of qualities from my ex and previous partners that I still want to behold, however the task now at hand is to not add a particular face - my ex-partner is the easiest because it was so recent - attached to those qualities that I want to emanate. Therefore, I am now am consciously practicing using the vibration of what I want from the past and incorporated into my intention work additional energetic qualities that I want to actively hold in my vibration as it relates to how I show up in the mirror and what I want to see energetically reflecting back at me without a specific face attached to it. By putting a face to it, I would cut myself off from the endless possibilities through whom that vibration can and is meant to manifest through. What I love about exercising this effort during the New Moon phase is that it represents a symbol and promise of endless possibilities while also demonstrating that just because you cannot see something, does not mean it is not there.